Just another sad weekend

I don't understand
Why I always cry on the weekend
I guess I miss my best friend
who'd stand by me till the end

I think it's not fair
for me to shed tears
every Friday nights
when everybody else is going out

I think it's stupid
for me to grieve
so I decided to pray
not letting sadness on the way
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Conflicts

I said, "Shut up,
I had enough"
He said, "Relax,
There is more to come"

I said, "Let go"
He said, "Let's work this out"
I said, "Impossible"
He said, "I love you"

There are things cannot understand
There are problems I cannot handle
There are stuffs I cannot touch

There are things he teaches me
There are problems he solve for me
There are stuffs showing he cares about me

There are conflicts here and there
There are fights in between
But there is also love anytime
which won't fade by anything

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jeeze, so mellow, heh ?!?!?

wow

Jeez, man, I am not sure how many poems I've written about ...

The unspoken words
The spotlight of my world
The love of my life
The people I wish to be by my side

The unbeliavable mistakes I've made
The stupidity I have
The wrong decisions
The major incompletion

The soulmate I've been praying about
The man I can live without

The friends who've been a blessing
the girls in Columbia I've been missing


Writing is my life
Poetry is my soul
Jeez, what kind of crappy artist am I !??!

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Relationship

Relationship is tough, man !
'coz you don't know what you've got till it's gone
by the time you wake up from your nightmare
there's nothing left for more

Jeez, I cannot even finish this poem
Where does my inspiration go, heh ?!?!

A Request

One day I asked God
"why don't we make a pact,
If I were never get older
then I will praise YOU forever"

Because You see, God,
when I am old
I do not have any strength to jump
or even to lift my hands

And YOU also know
I am so afraid of getting older
when my hair turns grey
and my face is filled with wrinkles

Oh God, I am gonna look ugly
and nobody would even want to see me

According to the Bible
You make everything possible
because You are always able

So yeah, why don't You make me forever young
I'll sing YOU songs that have never been sung

And God did not really say anything
although I feel like He's smiling
Then I wonder why I made a stupid request
because He always gives me the best

So of course I am still a "normal" being
I will get older and develop wrinkles skin
but I don't really care what I will be
because I am thankful for just being me

Love you, God !

-Ika-

MISERABLE

Feeling miserable
Looking miserable
Acting miserable

There's guilt hanging
with anger playing
and all the other feelings staying

Feeling miserable
Looking miserable
Acting miserable

This world is such a crappy place
with no one to be blamed
and nowhere to escape

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Give me one reason

Give me one reason to keep seeing you
or to be hopeful for you
and to stay true

Give me one reason to keep waiting for you
or to be wishful
without feeling like a fool

Give me one reason why we don't give up
'coz everything seems unright
and I dunno how to fix 'em up

Give me one good reason
why we're still trying to save a love boat
Give me just one good reason
coz I can't figure it out

Been a while

Ok, Ruth, sorry for not writing heh ...

1st day on the job was pretty cool
It's like I have my own world to rule
the hospital census was low
thus I could go home when the supervisor told me so

My Filipino landlord turned out nice
She is very open about her life
I jogged with her Thursday evening
when she told me she also likes hiking

She also said she would only date Caucasians
due to bad experience with her Asian husband
who divorced her & left her with 2 sons

My 2nd weekend in LA was okay
Saturday turned out to be a sports & game day
Started with badminton & ended up in Dave & Buster
I was burned out as the day was over

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Cape ah gw, Ruth, hehe....