Farika's new theory on women behavior

WOMEN 101

Women always feel insecure
That's a fact
One of my guy friends used to use a parable
of women & Tarzan

Just as Tarzan hops from one tree to another
women will not let go one "branch"
before they find another "branch"
to hang onto
b'coz they are so afraid of falling

Falling ...
Insecurity ...

This morning I found out
the first women on earth felt insecure
that is why we know something that is called 'sin'

Eve feels insecure
thus she cannot resist the temptation
to eat the fruit from the forbidden tree

Eve thought, "What if the serpent is right ?"
"What if we really can gain wisdom from eating the fruit ?"
" What if ... ??? "

"What if" is the first sign of insecurity
Unfortunately we all reach that stage at one point of time
Unfortunately sometimes it comes not at the right place
or right moment
Unfortunately there is no cure at this moment

So we just deal with it
May be turning our attention into something else
or pray, or share

Ok, enough for now .

where do you live ?

I live in the world called denial
Where its citizens work for what they called desire

I walk on the road named unreality
It's excellent outside but broken deep within

I stood in the intersection of pleasure and glamour
which none of those fulfill the hunger of my soul

What world do you live in ?
Is it better than the one I live in ?

Oh well

Yesterday I actually put on a make up
to work
to hide my "high school age" look
and it worked
nobody asked how old I was

and today I had the same thing
only ...
after a few hours, someone came and asked
Oh, Crap !!!

haha.... make up does not really work, either, heh ?!
How's pointy shoes ?
Jeez, bad idea
It's just gonna hurt my feet
Give me no good

So yeah, I broke the record
I could at least get one day off
without someone asking, "How old are you ?"

Well I guess it's not so bad afterall
It's an answered prayer, anyway
I do wanna look younger
I do wanna be a kiddo forever

Peace out !

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PS: Ruth, now worries lah. If I really need to kill time or really get bored, I can always fill out FS buletin board or write anything useless like this, haha...
Ok gotta go. Patients waiting. I am soooo hungry though !

Lonely

Loneliness is evil
Most of the people who commit suicide
feel lonely at the first place

Rarely am I in deep sorrow
Usually I am the cheerful soul

But you know what
Loneliness is unavoidable, man

What is good about LA
is that it has more fun places to go
But what's good about it
if you have nobody to go with anyway

Now see what is bad about Columbia
is that there is nothing much to do
On the other hand
I just need to dial someone's number and she'll be available in a minute

What is bad about moving here
is the 2 hour difference
Crap, when I feel burn out
someone out there has already gone to the dreamland

I guess I can call to Indo
But I ain't have any minutes in my phonecard
Now, see, loneliness is evil, man

How old do I look ?

Seriously, how old do I look ???
Every day (No kidding, man, every freaking day !)
I will have at least one person
approaching me, looking at me closely,
reading my name tag, smiling at me,
staring at me from the tip of my hair to the tip of my shoe

Then boldly asking me,
"How old are you ?"
or
"Aren't you too young to work here?"
or
"Is it a job or an internship ?"

Whoa... I got used to those questions for the 1st week
But I have been working for almost 2 months
and I still find people who just jumped in
and started looking at me
like I am a lost high school girl

Oh yeah, the nurses in the surgical floor
called me "high school girl"
one by one asked me, "Are you 20 ?"

The doctors ...
I cannot even go further to this
they may think I am the biggest joke
that the nutrition department ever had

Some doctors love me, of course
not in a good way, but oh well ...
Some praise me for my handwriting
I surprise they actually read my notes
Apparently, a few of them actually follow my sugestions

This 70-something doctor
may think I am like his granddaughter
He will tell me stories and play with my hair
or tap my head
"what is wrong with you, man ?"

This Persian doctor I met at the elevator
asked for my number
and without being shame asking me out as well
Jeez, don't you even realize you have a family ???

Another Persian doctor
The young, good-looking one, I mean
has suddenly become my friend
Unfortunately, Mari, my co-worker is in love with him
So I'd better not come close

So yeah ... anyway,
How old do you think I am ???

When Will We Say Enough ???

I realize
Humans will never say enough

When we are gifted with a godly soulmate
We ask for a godly and handsome one

When we can finally afford a house
We ask for a bigger one

When we are blessed with beautiful children
We want the pretty and smart ones

When we get a good job
We ask for a great job

When we receive a reasonable salary
We ask for a 6-digit one

When we lose a pound of body weight
We want to look unreasonable skinny like Paris Hilton

When ...
will humans say enough ???

What is up with life ?

Let's see
What I did this past week

Monday I spent time with Jessica
Sightseeing at the Promenade of St.Monica

Tuesday I learned poker at work
Definitely my first time, yet I rocked !

Wednesday August the 17th
Our Independence Day, yet not planning anything

Thursday I did not quite remember what happened
I guess I studied for my RD test

Friday I was about to swallow someone
yet playing poker with the guys changed my mind

Saturday I listened to Indo's band
performed by Willy and the gank

Sunday I spent time for myself
'coz for some reason everybody just left

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I have seen

I have seen prayers being answered
I have seen God works among His people
I have seen wounds being healed
I have seen how much God loves His people

I have seen wonders
I have seen miracles
I am just waiting for mine to come

From a deep pit I screamed
Alone in the darkness I cried outloud
From the highest place He waived
"Remember I feed 5000 men ?" He said

I started smiling
Oh yeah, if You can take care of 5000 men
wouldn't you care of me ???

2 fish and 5 loaves of bread
5000 men, not including their wives and children
12 baskets of leftover
what would you call it ???
MIRACLE !

A few US dollars
Several faithful godly friends
A ton of prayers
Isn't that all I need ???

Miracle does not cost much, you know
It only costs your faith
That's it !

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Money

I wish money never exist at all
I wish we would just use something else to trade
Animals, crops, land or whatever sounds fair

I wish Liz & I would find a "normal" roommate
I wish we had never met a psycho one
I wish we had a girl who would treat us fairly

Above all this
I wonder why God keep sending me a trouble-maker
Are YOU testing me ?
Are YOU teaching me of something ?
Are YOU mad at me ?
What are YOU trying to do, LORD ?

Above all this
I started getting used to people running away with my money
Now I am not freaking out as I was before
Although I pity myself for not being a billionaire
Why would a poor creature like me still have to deal with thieves ?
Why would they steal money from a poor foreigner ?
Why would they think I have enough money to support three people ?
While I cannot even keep up with my expenses

But again,
the question prevails ...
"What are YOU trying to do, LORD ?"

The day I agre with most guys

If there is anything I love the most
that will be scrapbooking

As a girl
I was not born as a shopper
Although I could shop as practical as boys do
or as picky as girls are

For some reasons
Sightseeing in the malls or outdoor stores
has more fun than shopping itself
at least for me

Yesterday I was burned out
I wonder how girls can stand a store in more than an hour
standing in front of those "SALE" signs
picking up the outfits they like
trying almost every cut and size
praising each other on how they look

At that particular minute
I started agreeing with the boys
how annoying girls are
when they go shopping !
I pity all the men who wait outside the store
for their significant other
and I started join the club
Gosh, I am not even a man !

By the end of the day
while the other three girls had so many stuffs on their hands
I only carried one small plastic bag with me
Guess what I had in there ?!
Scrapbooking kits, for sure !

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