Insecure

I cry without tears
I scream, but nobody hears
I stare at an empty space
something in my heart none can replace

Incomplete ...
when you & I do not meet

Incomplete ...
when the circumstances seem defeated

Insecure ...
unknown how long this feeling will endure

This is why I don't date

Dating is not always good
It only turns on my shopping mood
Making me such a dude

And then you may say
"then why do you date anyway ?"
Oh well, because sometimes it makes my day !

This is why long distance sucks !

If only you live 15 minutes away
I would see you everyday

Too bad you live in a country far far away
so we can't meet together & play

If only you can stay
I want you to come soon & don't delay

But I could only hope you're doing okay
I'm really sorry I can't see you today

Secangkir kopi bersama Tuhan

Aku hanyalah sampah
Hidup sekilas lalu punah
Kadang aku bermimpi
kalau sebentar lagi aku mati

Lalu aku tersadar
hidup ini hanya sebentar
Trus aku tanya ama Tuhan
apa ya yang bisa aku lakukan

Ternyata daftarnya berlembar-lembar
Berdoa, melayani & engga berkata kasar
Mesti punya kasih & rasa sabar

Di daftar itu ada juga nama teman-teman
teman main, teman sekolah & teman se-pelayanan
ada yang atheis, ada juga yang cinta Tuhan

Tapi semua ga ada bedanya
soalnya aku tetap harus berbuat baik ma mereka
Sambil tersenyum aku berkata,
"Tuhan, susah banget yah jadi manusia."

haha ... emang Ika banyak maunya ...
Ditakol dari Surga baru deh tau rasa
Hehe... ampun Tuhan, aku cuma becanda !

Random thoughts in my brain

I want to be a doctor
Hold on. May be a teacher.
Oops, what about a writer !??!
Nah. A dietitian still sounds better.

I need a man.
No. I think I better off with a friend.
Or ... gather some folks to form a band
Aargh ! What I need is a brain transplant
thus I can be as smart as Einstein

I want to go bowling
Oops, change my mind, I'd go shopping
Or swimming ... or sightseeing ...

When there's no choice, I complain
when there are too many choices, I also complain
so here I am again
with all the choices that remain
asking God where I should stand

Something about L

Love is a mistery
cannot be explained by history
Experts said good communications is the key
Although I think it doesn't guarantee

Love is a play
we don't always do what we say
we try the "audition" then walk away

Love is love
something that can make us sick of
or other times proud of

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Haha...

Aku kepengen punya Doraemon
Minta pintu kemana saja
Mo ke bank, kantor, atopun ke salon
Tinggal pindah sekejap mata

Aku kepengen punya jin Aladin
yang bisa mengabulkan tiga permintaan
Bisa masuk keluar negara mana aja tanpa izin
Ato mo bikin apa2 ga perlu alasan

Diatas segalanya aku kepengen punya kebijaksanaan
Kerjain segala hal pake iman & pengharapan
jadi tiap hari bukan cuma mengkhayal
soalnya Doraemon & Aladin cuma ada di negri abal-abal

Haha ....

Dreamer

You may call me a dreamer
that won't stop me being a runner
I'll keep asking big stuffs in my prayer
until someday we both see the answer

You may call me a dreamer
that won't stop me being a fighter
through the spring, fall, summer, or winter
God will always be my shelter

You may call me a dreamer
that won't stop me being a history maker
One day we'll see my name on the paper
written extra large "Farika the survivor"

Something about Life

People come and go
Some keep in touch, some don't

Take an example of this gal from Missouri
She's been my bed buddy
for several days in Kentucky

She said hi and goodbye
without any kiss or hugs
well, she might gave a slight smile

People come and go
Then I wonder ... if they'll let me be alone

Greetings from Louisville, Kentucky

Life has been great
although sometimes there are cracks
but overall it has been great

Until they shake my world
taking me away from my comfort zone

All these young missionaries
responding to God on their 20's
They went to different contingents and countries

I am just hoping
I don't miss out anything
or there is still time to do something

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