Monday, October 31, 2005

Napa siii

Napa siii
Yang namanya 'cinta' itu susah dipahami
Walopun udah ngalamin berkali-kali

Bener ga siii
Yang namanya cowo bae2 itu susah dicari
Yang namanya jodoh itu ga bakal lari

Apa iya tuuu
Yang namanya jodoh cuma atu
Gimana kalo yg gw demen lebih dari itu

Apa siii
Definisi mencintai & dicintai
Ampe sekarang gw tetep ga ngerti

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Sunday, October 30, 2005

I may not be

I may not be a good friend
I don't take time to give and listen

I may not be a good daughter
Only giving my parents grieve and anger

I may not even a good human being
Living a life of lust, desire, and sin

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Haloween "break up"

Right before Haloween nite
He ruined her life

He did not have much to say
She did not understand the game he played

All she knew was she wasn't feeling alrite
Coz he broke her heart

Right before Haloween nite
She prayed to God

She prayed for herself to be strong
and wished for happiness to come along
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Saturday, October 29, 2005

HALLOWEEN

The day when you can be
anything but yourself

The day when you hide your beauty
instead of covering yourself

The day to have a party
and amuse yourself

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Halloween
What does it mean to me?

A costume party
at Brittney's
Last year

My first & last party
throughout my college career
My first time being naughty
Drinking a what so-called beer

Halloween
A day of carving pumpkin
with Tamara and Cindy
A gateway from being me
The dorky boring personality

Halloween
A day of memories
The 'ladybug' Jeni
The 'Lara Croft' Lizzie
The "fitness instructor' Brittney

Halloween
When normal people turn crazy
Thank God it only happens once in a year

Thursday, October 27, 2005

An Honest Call

Dearest God,
I am crushed
can't help it any longer
living in the world of stranger

Dearest Dad,
I am scared
of all the decisions I have to make
without knowing it'd be good or bad

Dearest God, lead me
to the eternal place I'd be

Recently, Lately, Usually

Recently
I was really happy
sharing stories with somebody

Lately
someone has been moody
and put the blame on me

Usually
I'd go to bed early
but tonite
I'd be nice
although honestly I do not know
what I have done wrong

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Farika Thanks to

Ruth Ninajanty
for spending so much time & effort to see me
hope to see you before Christmas eve

Joseph, Sigit, Iwan, Budi
Thanks for the card game you taught me
Hope to see you in Thanksgiving week
and tell me more about your "Maggy"

Rudi, Yovita, Tina, Benny, Joan
Thanks for the game nite, it was fun

Ci Lia & Craig
Thanks for taking a time off to see me

The Stones: Britt, Hinda, Artie
Thanks for having me
and treating me like a family

Lizzie Ganey
I missed those times when you called me "silly"
I bet you'll end up marrying Terry
Hope you find a job & make a good money
then travel to LA to see your dorky roomie

Freddy & Wulan
Hope to see you again sometime
& introduce me to your special "someone"

Reynold
For dropping me off
& picking me up from the airport

Glowing boy
for being so awesome
& available when I am bored

There are too many memories
left in St.Louis, Missouri
The Stones', bubbletea, & UMSL library
Too many people & things I want to see
Old friends, baby Jordi, City Museum, Little Italy
Maybe I'll come back when I have money

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Monday, October 24, 2005

The Curse of the Artisan

Last winter at the Artisan
4 gals shared stories about their "someone"
including the fun stuffs happened in their relationship
without knowing somehow they would get sick

The following week at the Artisan
the same 4 gals cried
their spirit suddenly died
Since then they cursed the Artisan

This year at the Artisan
I cannot make up my mind
when other gals left their love story behind
should I give up mine ???

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CRAP !!! Keilangan kata2 niii gw.
That's why I said relationship SUCKS, maaan !

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Unforgetable Spots in CoMO

1. International Center, N 52 Memorial Union
* Where the gossip starts among the super-gals: Christine, Jill, Ruth, Erika, Kandi, Katie
* Where I saw Taka for the 1st time ( not that it really matters, but you know ... )
* Where my 'college career' starts : IEW, Orientation, Voice of America, grant In Aid, Tiger
Global Scholarship

2. Fusion Brew Bubletea
* The place that heals me from my broken heart, sadness, tears, confusion, madness about
homework
* The place where I spent my money the most (possibly)

3. Britt's, Alissa's, Robin's Apt - where the Dietetics & Halloween parties were held

4. Michael's & Hobby Lobby - the place where I belong

5. Cooper's Landing - the only Thai food by the river

6. Brady Food Court
* The longest job I've ever had (3 years... no kidding !)
* Campus Dining Scholarship, interviewed by MIZZOU Magazine (about student job),
Campus Dining ads
* Where everyone actually knows I have a unique style in bowling

7. La Burgouise Winery - where I had my 1st alcoholic drink ! Thanks to Jeni.

8. Boone Hospital - where I treated like a real Dietitian ! They made me a farewell party, too !

9. Eva J's Dining Hall, Great Wall, Cici Pizz, Arya's old apt - where Ruth, Arya, Amel & I spend
quality time

10. Katy Trail - the place to go to when I am bored

11. Cherry Street Artisan - where the girls were "cursed" & suddenly having trouble with their
boyfriends

12. Memorial Union - Comedy Wars & business plan with Britt & Amanda

13. Jesse Wrench Auditorium every Tues nite - Chi Alpha !!!

14. Brady TA - where I spend time when I get mad & overwhelmed. Yes, I bowled !!

15. Super Walmart - the BEST thing that has ever happened to CoMo.

Monday, October 17, 2005

About today

Farika's off for today
coz she worked on Saturday

Last weekend was enjoyable for her
Although she was lost in poker

Last weekend she's lacking of sleep
to something new she was addicted

Farika's off for today
and decided to have a productive day

She woke up early
to go to her insurance company
and finish her business with the DMV

Farika was lost last night
Thank God she got home alrite

Out of curiosity
she decided to re-do her trip
to find out which highway she missed

It was raining
and hailing

But her mission was accomplished
she deserved a treat

A cup of boba milk tea was what she got
and she thanked her pal a lot

Rain

Rain reminds me of my hometown
My hometown reminds me of YOU
YOU remind me of love

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Maybe

Maybe it's just me
being silly

Hopefully it's just me
being moody

But honestly
there is no more L-word in my dictionary

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Sunday, October 09, 2005

INSPIRATION

Church gives me an inspiration
An inspiration to live my life
An inspiration to give love to others
An inspiration to stop doing stupid stuffs

This morning I heard that song again
" I do not know exactly why You chose me
but there must be beauty only You can see"
I think it's really pretty ...

This morning I heard that sermon
About the blind man
in the book of John

Just like this man
I am totally blind
100 % blind

I do not know exactly what God is doing with my life
or where He is leading me to

Then I was praying
for healing
from my blindness
and stubborness

But I guess I'll always be blind
so I'll let Him be my light
and shine in my heart

Jesus gives me an inspiration
An inspiration to live my life
An inspiration to give love to others
An inspiration to stop doing stupid stuffs

Saturday, October 08, 2005

What's New ?

Ummm....

1. Mari is both my co-worker & my roomie now
2. Dr. Elad is totally my type, but he looks unfriendly & never smiles
3. I am an occasional vegetarian
4. Chi Alpha service will start next Tuesday
5. David got a programmer job
6. My cousin graduated
7. My other cousin in Japan just gor married
8. My closest cousin & his galfriend went to China
9. Didi has a girlfriend
10. Matthew Pierson gives Ruth headache & ulcer altogether
11. Eliana & I may become good friends
12. I still do not know if Dr. Ghodsian (the most goodlooking one) is married
13. I have an anorexic patient whose weight is only 30 kg !!!
14. I gain so much weight since I started this job ( what an irony ... )
15. Dr. Tsadok is friendly & so nice to me
16. I am now a Registered Dietitian
17. I'll be in Saint Louis in Oct 22-26
18. I am looking for a part time job & an apartment with Mari
19. I lost so much money from being fooled by my psycho ex-roomie
20. I miss my friends in Bogor & Missouri !!!

Thanks for reading this

Meeting Brittney

My eyelids have been disappeared since last weekend.
I suspect it comes from lacking of sleep.
At this time last Saturday, I was in the middle of nowhere in the Interstate-5 finding my way to Sarah's house.

Yes, last weekend I went out of town.
San Fransisco, baby !
Brittney & Erin came for a week, so I decided to meet 'em there.
Plus I have never been exposed to the beauty of San Fran ever.

San Fran was really chilled compare to LA.
I was unprepared. Luckily I put on this light jacket when I left the house.

San Fran has a huge farmer's market by the water, so cool !
There are piers everywhere.
This place looks more like Chicago (plus, the same temperature, too !), only more organized.

Downtown San Fran is pretty, surrounded by outdoor shops with the-most-likely-to-wear brand, such as Forever 21, GAP, Old Navy, etc.
The Chinatown is not as nasty as I thought it will be.
In fact, Erin said this is the biggest Chinatown in the States.

San Fran is big in art.
There are museums scattered everywhere.
Not that I am an artist or even interested in art or anything, just so you know.
Plus Erin & Sarah are art history major, so they talk about art a lot.
While Brittney & I knew a little stuffs in art, we were more excited sharing about her becoming a vegan. Or me trying to be a vegetarian.

After a tiring walk downtown, we treated ourselves in an Indian resto called "ROTI".
The food was excellent, but overpriced. Yaiks !
If only I were still a student, I might not step my feet into this kind of resto.

By the way, Britt & I have passed our RD exam.
She is not looking for a dietitian job, though.
She's starting her clerical job in STL next Monday.
She is the most laidback person I've ever met.
Her life is so much fun compare to mine.

Imagine this :
She graduated with the best GPA in the class.
Then she took a summer off, teaching teens in a summer camp in the mountains of Colorado.
She came back to STL, then took off to Pittsburgh & stayed with her sister.
And now she got accepted to a 5-month community program In Israel, where she would work at the Kabbot (not sure if this is spelled correctly) & learned Hebrew.

What an amazing girl !
She is such an adventurer, a traveller, despite her tiny little body.
She is the friendliest American friend I have ever had so far.
So open to new things, new challenges, new places, or whatever.

She is an inspiration.

The next day, we walked across the forest of Muir Woods.
I could imagine both Erin & Brittney becoming the forest lady, giving a tour to the visitors, telling them to conserve the trees, haha....

My last dream place to visit was the Golden Gate bridge.
The view was too pretty to explain.
You could basically see the ocean, the cars passing by the bridge, and the hills.

So yeah, that was my weekend story.
Now share yours !